Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Geni's LiveJournal:

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Friday, September 27th, 2002
7:43 pm	i'm at bryans. Bye. x] (Comment on this)
Monday, September 9th, 2002
3:17 pm	Alright everyone so here's the big deal kay? I'm only gonna be on two hours after school which would be 3-5 Western time. My parents are getting a divorce so really I'm not living at my house any more. I'm staying with my aunt. Sucks huh? Oh well. None will probably miss me so really.. That's kinda cool I guess. Don't have shit to worry about. So what's up besides hard dicks and tits? Nothin' much here, journal. It looks like it's only you and me now. So Manda's mad at me I guess or somethin' I've been away for 5 days. So yeah. I think Marty is trying to give me a hint too or something. I IMed him today and put up an away message. Yeah. It was a hard burn but.. y'know. I've never been too good with them damn relationships so.. If this doesn't work out between me and marty is like.. Over with relationships for me, yo. s'bout time I get a real life or somethin'. I dunno. Anyways j'.. Ima be headin' out. Later. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Final Fantasy X - Ending theme (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 3rd, 2002
4:59 pm	wee. What a fun day. I started school. Everyone was all "School was great!" and "I can't wait to go tomorrow!" No one barely said hi or noticed me. Everyone said I looked so diffrent. Maybe that's why. I wish Nathan was there... I miss him lots. I haven't heard from him since last year.. The day before school ended. He's a freshman now.. I'm an 8th grader. But anyways. I'm thinking about RPing Sakura again.. I just don't know with who. Oh well. I'm tired and can't really type and I don't want to sleep because then I won't be able to sleep till night. Gah. I want the weekened to come so bad. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Card Captor Sakura + Groovy! (Comment on this)
Monday, September 2nd, 2002
10:24 pm	GAH! I start fuckin' school tomorrow. What kind of fucking shit is that? e_e Excuse my well mannered French but.. I'M GONNA MISS STAYING UP LATE. ; ;!! Yeah. My mom might be getting a divorce with my dad. That makes Geni happy. She might get together with Ed! x]!!! THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY! It's like.. Glay man. And their song Happiness. So.. Anyways. Thought I would update. Later. Current Mood: cranky Current Music: Outlaw Star + Hiro no Tsuki (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 27th, 2002
1:46 am	Alright. I changed my layout back to Teru. x] Well.. Glay.. But they are still cool. x]!! Teru is still sexy but.. Hisashi is like.. Sexy too. ; ; I dunno who to choose! I'll just stick with my Marty.. Oh.. Didn't I tell? We didn't break up at all. I just got the story mixed up. Seeing how dumb I am. Well.. I haven't played FFX in awhile.. And haven't gotten much sleep either. Today.. I got my hair cut. Yeah. It looks okay. My hair is so god damn thick though.. So anyways. I'm tired.. And I want to get something to drink.. Like WATER.. So.. Later. Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: Glay + Way of Difference (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 22nd, 2002
10:34 pm	Sometimes I forget what I even live for. I can't take all this pain. No, I'll never kill myself but.. I want to. I want to die so bad. I woke up this morning, happy for once. He was the only one who could make me happy. I took a shower and got online. There he was, but, away from his computer, sleeping. I didn't care though. As long as I saw his screen name, it made me oh so happy. But I guess even happiness is too much to ask for in my life. I keep telling myself "Get over it, he's just another jerk" and all these things to try and cheer me up.. But I have to tell you. It's just not working. Fuck the world, fuck relationships. I don't even want to date again. I hate online dating. It's pointless. I feel so much anger towards life. Anger, sorrow, depression, anything that makes anyone unhappy. I hate it. I HATE online relationships. I'm never going to get myself mixed up in one of those fuckers again. I just want to be left alone right now. I yelled at my mom because she wouldn't just leave me alone and let my pathetic tears just flush out of my dumb eyes. Fucking emotions.. I shouldn't even be sad that he dumped me.. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I DID WRONG. That's another down side about online relationships. Whatever.. They just put me through so much fucking pain.. I-I just can't take it anymore. Fuck them. Fuck you. Farewell. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
10:07 pm	crimson. as crimson as the blood running off the tip of fingers gently touched by the grasp of death. forever, and ever now, no more she'll never be heart broken again. goodbye world, goodbye family and friends, and goodbye torn up heart. i leave you now, broken hearted and mouring. that's what you should be doing. mourn for me bitches, you made my life a living hell. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Malice Mizer + Beast of Blood (Comment on this)
12:32 pm	Well. Right now I'm really bored and I have nothing to do. I was watching TV but then it got bored and.. Yeah. I have nothing to talk about right now so I'll write in later. Peace. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Chrono Trigger + Singing Mountain (Comment on this)
12:16 am	How Does *Your* Dick Rate? AHAHAHAHA! XDDD I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING! XDD I JUST PICKED RANDOM ONES AND I GOT DICKLICIOUS! XDDD AHHH! I'M CRACKING UP! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 21st, 2002
11:40 pm	I'm in a better mood now. I'm talking to Marty. x]!! Fun stuff. I got Manda mad at me. And my friend is gonna use his disc doctor on the poor FFX disc. Things are starting to look up for Geni. <333 I love Marty. x] Current Mood: happy Current Music: Malice Mizer + Syunikiss (Comment on this)
9:46 pm	i'm in such a fucking bad mood right now. i scratched the hell out of my friends FFX and it isn't even mine. god dammit. i don't know why life fucking hates me. i can't stand being mad fuckign 24/7. then my mom just yelled at me. god. she keeps staring at me. not watching tv or anything. i don't know what to do.. I just don't know. I don't know what to do with myself. i hate acting like this.. All "i don't know what to do with myself" because i don't want to feel sorry for myself.. I swear to the fucking "God" that i don't deserve this. i can't play ffx now. I have nothing to do. Now I have to buy my friend a whole new game. i just want to have a fucking decent good day. a nice LONG talk with my boyfriend.. But I can't get any of those. if there's one thing i've learned.. life sucks. i'd rather die then spend another fucking minute on this hell hole. but i can't build up the courage to kill myself. i probably never will. i can't wait to die. i want to die. i literally have nothing to live for. dreams never come true. only in dumb games and childish books. well.. i've had enough tears for one night.. and for all of you fuckers who think i'm trying to feel sorry for myself.. oh if you only knew... Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 20th, 2002
4:14 pm	... keh. I decided to update this dumb thing because UJ is down. Marty left to do stuff. I miss him. ._. Lots. so. ima go and play FFX now. later. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Final Fantasy X + The Moon ( Utikisama ) (Comment on this)
Monday, August 12th, 2002
4:03 pm	Ah.. Back to good 'ol LJ.. :) Current Mood: happy Current Music: Card Captor Sakura + Fruits and Candy. (Comment on this)
3:03 pm	Bleh. I moved to UJ. My name is melodies.. So like. Look at my UJ on ujournal.org/~melodies It's cool lookin'. 'cept for fuckin' UJ keeps screwing it up so... Manda is helpin' me. THANKS MANDA! :DD Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: Final Fantasy X - Ending theme (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 4th, 2002
5:19 pm	I'm so bored.. I'm eating crackers. It's the highlight of my day. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Watching TV. (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 1st, 2002
11:26 pm	Holy Crap: The Shrine KakeruBlue: holy crap! someone's at the door... I own Gackt: Cause.. he hates her guts KakeruBlue: brb. I own Gackt: :x I own Gackt: HOLY CRAP! I own Gackt: XD I own Miyabi: O_O I own Gackt: think about that I own Gackt: it's funny. KakeruBlue: back. KakeruBlue: ::takes out shotgun and shoots at next door:: OnlineHost: KakeruBlue has left the room. I own Gackt: ROFLMAO I own Gackt: What's next.. I own Miyabi: Wet shit. I own Teru: The shit.. Shaped as Gackt. I own Miyabi: EW. I own Gackt: OHHHH! I own Miyabi: WTF? I own Gackt: MY FACORITE I own Teru: xD I own Gackt: Favorite* I own Gackt: Wait I own Gackt: And this is the wall! I own Gackt: I painted gackt I own Gackt: with my feces I own Gackt: xD I own Teru: xD I own Miyabi: So I guess Manda stuck her hand in the toilet and drew him? I own Miyabi: o_o I own Gackt: Nah I own Teru: This.. Is my wall of famous shits. I own Gackt: I shot it out through my ass I own Teru: From Gackt.. To michael jackson. I own Teru: A piece of crap.. KakeruBlue: stupid boy.... I own Teru: Shaped as a halo. KakeruBlue: divine shit now? I own Miyabi: o__o I own Teru: gross. KakeruBlue: [t'was the boy next door] I own Teru: what if someone had a shit shrine? I own Gackt: ROFLMAO I own Gackt: This shit was the hardest shit i've ever taken I own Gackt: AND THIS ONE.. I own Gackt: xDD I own Teru: And this.. I own Gackt: This one is green I own Gackt: :x I own Gackt: xD! I own Teru: Is the toilet water.. KakeruBlue: lol I own Teru: From the toilet which my poop disappeared from. I own Gackt: ROFLMAO I own Gackt: But someone told me it didn't disappear I own Gackt: It's just hiding I own Gackt: :x I own Teru: Either that or it just flushed itself down the hole. I own Teru: xD I own Gackt: XDD I own Gackt: -laughing I own Gackt: and this little piece of shit KakeruBlue: man, that stupid stupid boy. I own Gackt: took me 1 hour to shit out I own Gackt: but it REALLY small I own Gackt: xD I own Teru: Yes.. It may look like a tic tac. I own Gackt: ROFLMAO I own Teru: But it caused HELL. Current Mood: hyper Current Music: Malice Mizer + Beast of Blood (Comment on this)
1:27 pm	It's all about GACKT I am a dark Gackt fan! What kind of Gackt fan are you? quiz by mcvarmazi I am one of Gackt's eternal Dears! What kind of Gackt fan are you? quiz by mcvarmazi I am a dark Gackt fan! What kind of Gackt fan are you? quiz by mcvarmazi Mwaha. I originally got Dark Gackt but.. The other ones were so cute.. I COULDN'T HELP MYSELF! ;-; I'm trying to find a GLAY quiz so.. Be on the lookout! O_O Current Music: Malice Mizer + Syunikiss (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 31st, 2002
12:55 pm	Well.. Okay.. I'm STILL obsessing over Teru.. And manda still insists on making fun of him.. Teru.. I <3 you! I love you Teru! Come to America! And marry mee! ;-; My house is so cold.. And I have the head on and everything.. AND THE BIGEST SPIDER JUST RAN ACROSS MY FLOOR! I TRIED TO KILL IT BUT IT GOT AWAY! ;-; I CAN'T MOVE NOW! Stupid spiders.. Scaring me and whatnot.. ;-; I haaaaate spiders.. Help. Current Mood: cold Current Music: Glay + Mermaid (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 30th, 2002
12:20 am	.. I just found out that Teru is married. -sigh.- I was getting all hiked up about.. Well.. Nothing. ._. So now.. I have to like.. Change my LJ back to something else or.. Own someone else. But really.. I DUN WANNA! ;-; GOOOOOOOOOOOD! I FEEL LIKE CRYING! ;-; I WANNA OWN TERU! I WANT HIM TO NOT BE MARRIED!!!! GOD WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE MARRIED! ;-; I LOVE YOU TERU! Shelly doesn't help.. "Get over him" and "You still have Dru" .. I'VE ONLY BEEN OBSESSED WITH TERU FOR LIKE.. FOUR DAYS! WHY'D IT HAVE TO END SO EARLY! .. Okay. Now I am crying.. Jesus. I'm crying over some freakin' dude.. God. I's reasonable for me though.. Now the song just changed to Happiness.. Don't wanna hurt you anymore tell me the meaning of your happiness? .. Gr. ._. I'm like.. Really super super sad now.. Bleh.. I'ma go now.. .. I have nothing to say about Teru ..</b Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Gackt + Story (Comment on this)
Monday, July 29th, 2002
11:29 pm	EEEEE! O________O I'M HYPER AS HELL! TALKING ABOUT TERU AND ALL THAT GOOD STUFF! OMG! I WATCHED A VIDEO OF GACKT TRIPPING OFF OF A HORSE! AND IT WAS LIKE! FUNNY AS HELL! ASHDKLAJSHDKLAJSDAKJSJDKAS AWWW! O_O I'M HYPER AS A FREAKIN' HORNY DOG RIGHT NOW! FUUUUUGE! COMMENT ON MY REACTIONS! AND I'LL LAUGH AT THEM IN THE FUTURE WHEN I'M MARRIED TO TERU AND LIKE.. IMA LOOK BACK AT THIS MOMENT AND LAUGH AT HOW I WAS SO OBSESSED WITH HIM! HAW HAW HAW! TERU + GENI = LOVE, SEX AND ALL THE ROMANCE HAPPINESS!!! Current Mood: hyper Current Music: Glay + Happiness (Comment on this)